Thursday March 31, 2005

I am an idiot. I woke up this morning thinking my alarm clock said 7:30 but really it was only 6:30. So I have been up for way too long already. It's gonna be a long day.


Daniel

Monday March 28, 2005

I hope everyone had a good Easter weekend. Mine started off Great, went to hell, then ended perfect.

I got off work early Friday and went and had my truck washed. They did the worst job, it was unbelievable, but at least it was cleaner. Then I came back home and helped my parents work in the yard for a little while. After I decided it was too much work and I was tired, I went home to try to take a nap. My phone kept ringing, so I decided maybe a nap was not planned for me today. Landon, Tanner and Zach came over and we went to the mall. I needed a black belt for Easter. I ended up getting a new wallet too, which is always nice. Tanner and I went to Amy's for a lil while... which was good and bad move number 1. It was good because I got to see some of my friends, but it started the downward fall towards pure inebriation. Kendall showed up like 5 minutes before we had to go, but at least we got to hang out for a lil while. Then Grant drove 95 MPH to ft worth so we could see evan play before he went on at 11. We got there at 11 on the dot, and evan was not playing. Nor did he play for the next 30 minutes! Finally at 11:30 he started and played 5 songs. We left at 12:30 and they decided we needed and after party. Somehow my apt got nominated and decided upon as the destination. Everything was fine until more and more people that I don't know started showing up. We were not being loud, but the same thug who threatened me the other weekend was yelling at us to be quiet. Come 3 or so Cade was leaving and fell down the stairs. The thug grabbed Cade and threw him into his truck and was trying to fight him. The cops ended up showing up and everything turned out fine, but its not the ideal situation when your drunk and tired. Everyone finally left at 4 and I got to sleep.

Saturday I woke up feeling the best I have ever felt in my entire life. Except the exact opposite. I've decided that I am not having an open invite to my apt any more. There are some select people who can come over, but other than that, if you can't find something to do, you are not going to find it at my place either. I went and spent the day with my parents. My mom and I went shopping and I burned her a movie of Lilly. I finally ate some dinner at 5 and Landon called and was at my apt. So I headed over there and told my parents I would be back in just a lil bit. I ended up falling asleep on my couch and woke up at 8:30 to watch the mavs game. After the game I decided I was going to stay at my parents house because we were leaving for church before the sun thought about waking up. I came over here around 10 and just watched TV until I fell asleep at 1. I really did not do anything exciting on Saturday, but it was just what I needed.

Sunday morning we get up and go to church. The service was really nice, but crowded and the traffic was terrible. I really like our new church. I just realized that I am talking about how much I like my church in one paragraph, and talking about how drunk I was in another. That does not go well together. I am going to have to work on that. After church we went and picked up Lilly and headed home for lunch. My aunt Susie came over and ate with us. She is my fav person in the world. She is my big sister. I hope that Lilly and I are as close as Susie and I are. We got home at 11 and were waiting for Susie to get there. They finally showed up at noon and we ate. Lunch was good. I love lunch on big hollidays, but I HATE the leftovers. They are the worst thing to happen to us since sliced bread. I helped cook and set the table so I decided I was going to watch golf while they cleaned. I deserved it, I earned it. When the kitchen was clean, everyoned decided it was nap time. My mom and dad went to their room and my aunt slept on the couch, so I went home for a lil while. When I got back my friend Grant called and he was about to head back to Austin, so I went and said bye to him and went to see their new house. Grant's parents have season tickets to Bass Hall and they could not go last night. They gave me their tickets and Kendall and I went. Their seats were amazing. I could have touched the stage if I wanted to. The show was good, a little weird, but good. Then we went and ate dinner at Cheddars. We had a really nice talk about a lot of stuff. Its nice to have someone just to talk to. Then I took her home and went home myself. I finally fell asleep at midnight and had to wake up at 6:30 this morning. So now here I sit, tired like nobody's business and dreading school tonight.

Wow I did not plan on writing a book this morning, but what can you do?

Daniel

March 25, 2005

Let me kiss you just one time... let me hold you like you were mine...

Three Evils

a cautious ear to the mouth of your confession
think of all the things we put him through
in the face of his god would he tell the truth?

still recorded were the words that dribbled out his kiss
when eyes go blind in this man of what could once become
sever the limbs off his torso in sleep
and burn what remains so the world may now see
no longer...will we wait for your answers
back to the hell where you've come from
think of all the times you've once had
write them in a letter that says goodbye

you'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
you'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth

slowly discarded were the remains of his lonely youth
among the alley where the dwellers scare to notice
picture a young boy in pieces and streets with leveled malfunctions
no name to be called redeemer
We'll fix him restore him...with the love is no other
think of all the things you did before
write them in a letter that says reborn

you'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
you'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth

following you across the interstate walking away...I'll fire on
following you across the interstate walking away...I'll fire on
following you across the interstate walking away...I'll fire on

on the wrong way out
on the causeway to neverwhere
on the wrong way out
on the causeway to neverwhere
on the wrong way out
on the causeway to neverwhere

dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end?
dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end?

pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...
pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...
pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...forever you will learn

Hold On

How long have I been spinning round your head?
So long I've been running round in circles
And for the longest time its been building up inside me
It's coming over the edge
And I step off that ledge and fall
Cause I can't hold, hold on
I can't hold, hold, hold on
So come here baby
Lets throw down all our cards
Cause I'm a king of spades
And your my queen of hearts
We can celebrate
And your lost at sea
And I will salivate
Please come to me
Cause I can't hold, hold on
I can't hold, hold on
No more prescriptions for the sickness yet come
It plaques us like we're first born sons
And we play this game
Now we're face to face
And I don't have the words
So I will cut to the chase
Oh but it hurts
And my hands will strain
At the touch of your face
Yeah the dragons slain
I fall from grace
Cause I can't hold, hold on
I can't hold, hold on

Monday March 21, 2005

My boys are back.. except Landon who is in College Station. But he will be back Thursday.

Friday March 18, 2005

Today was good!
My dad had his eyes cut... really he had the laser eye surgery so he can see w/o his glasses now. I have never seen my dad w/o them for more than a minute ever. It is weird to see him now. I am going to have to get used to it. Since he had his surgery he left work at 1:30 so Shawn and I were working this afternoon. He said we could leave at 3 or 3:30 since Fridays are usually slow, which was nice. So come 3, I left to go to the post office and the UPS store. Then I came home and got my laundry and took it back to my parent's house. I started a load and Lilly woke up. My mom, Lilly and I went to the mall and got my Easter clothes and then drove to Ft. Worth to get Perotti's pizza. It was soo good. Landon came over and we watched most of the Duke game and then went to the Martin soccer game. The guys at the "ticket box" thought we were in high school so he only charged us for the student tickets. I don't know if that is good or not. The money pincher in me was glad, but my ego was shot since I graduated 3 years ago. Kendall sat with us for most of the night. It was good to see her. My mom and dad are going to Tyler tomorrow so I am house sitting and watching the dogs for them.
Oh get this! Landon, Meredith and I went to the store and got some dessert and when we came back there were probably 15 or so people out in the middle of the street. I drove by them and two of the guys came up to me and were trying to start a fight with me. I told them that they needed to get out of the road because people drive there. I am so scared they are going to mess with my truck. My neighbor downstairs is cool and she talked with them. Then she came up here and told me that I should move my truck bc she thought they would screw with it. I looked all over my lease information for the patrol cop's number, but it is not anywhere in there. My neighbor came back up here and gave me the main office number bc she thought the number was on the recorder. However, there is no recording. So we are sitting here thinking about what we are going to do. I am going to stay at my parent's house tonight bc if they screw with my truck I am going to be PISSED!! I am going to call the office on Monday and tell them I want out of my lease bc I do not feel comfortable here with them walking around. I don't know if that is a good idea bc they will know who talked with the office and they will just mess with me and my stuff. I am going to ask my parents tomorrow what they think.
That is all I have for now. If I think of more... I guess it will have to wait for another post ;)

Daniel

Konstantine

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
But i can't stand here in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had dreams that i would learn to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But dammit you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
It's just this guilt has got the best of me

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

Konstantine came walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And i've been thinking, and i've thinking, no
But she's been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And i was thinking, what i was thining ya know
we've been drinking and it doesn't get me anywhere

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
It's hard to like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
But this time i'm alone, and i don't see those stars
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie in my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
And all the things i put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

God, I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no no,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
And you see, no, that i've been missing in my Living room
Cause this is what i miss, what i miss
We don't have much room
I said, does anyboy need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

My Konstantine