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Your the last good thing about this part of town!

edit: scratch that! (edited 10/03/04 9:44 p.m.)

Two points for honesty

If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty
It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all

I want to be where I've never been before
I want to be there and then I'd understand
Know I'm right and do it right, could I get to be like that?
I'll know what I don't know with nothin more to gain
Will I get better or stay the same?

I find I always move to slowly
Can't lift a finger, can't change my mind
I never knew till someone told me that...

If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty
It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all

And all the people who've seen it all before
And all the people who really understand
I'll Know they're right, and have done it right, could I get to be like that
I'll know what I don't know, it's harder everyday
Can't lift a finger, can't hurt a fly

I've found I always move too slowly
One things for certain, I'm insecure
I never knew till someone told me that....

If that's all you will be, you'll be a waste of time
You've dreamed a thousand dreams, none seem to stick in your mind
Two points for honesty
It must make you sad to know that nobody cares at all
Nobody cares at all
They never care at

Wednesday Sept 29, 2004

Ok, so it is Wednesday, and I am up at starbucks. This is the first free time I have had all week. I cannot decide whether I am gonna go up to the Bob Duncan Community Center for Connect tonight. I have a test in Stat tom and a test in Sociology on Monday. I really should be studying, but my mind is elsewhere. There are two guys smoking out of a hookah outside. They have their music blaring. Its actually really funny, they think they are so cool. HAHA! O well, its their poragative.

I am getting frustrated again with some things, and others are doing unbeleiveably well. Work is amazing. It is so busy and we are doing so much business. School is going good. My grades are good and I am enjoying my classes. There are some people whom I just don't get. I am going to leave it at that, just in case (for some totally unlikely chance) they read this.

My Soc. Prof is offering extra credit for watching the debate tom. night and writing a 1 page summary over the topics and our opinions. I was hoping to watch it anyway, but now I have an added incintive. The only set back is that I have a tennis match at 8, which is the same time that the debate starts. I am hopefully going to tape it. I think Kerry is absolutely out of his mind, and I really don't care for Bush. However, Bush is by far the lesser of the two evils. I don't like Michael Moore. I think he is a pompous arogant idiot, BUT he has said one thing that I find to be true. I am going to edit it for my liking, but the Idea is his. His original statement is "Kerry is not the lesser of the two evils... Bush is the evil of the two lessers". I like his primis is sound. Kerry is not the lesser of the two evils, He is the evil of the two lessers. John Kerry has said nothing to make you vote for him. He has no political sway in the election. The whole thing is riding on Bush. It is up to "G-dub" to lose. The election is not Bush's to win either. Don't get me wrong. Of the two men, Kerry has said nothing to deserve anything. Bush has at least taken a risk by stating his point, and sticking with them. I don't know where or why I am going with this, but I am.

Well mom just called and they are going to Cheddar's. I am off to meet them.

Daniel

Our Trip

So this weekend Landon, Tanner and I went to Lubbock. The drive was the best part. The three of us together is crazy, I would suggest avoiding it at all costs. We left friday @ 4 and headed down I-20. We stopped around Weatherford for the first bathroom and drink break. Then we headed out again. About an hour and a half later Landon had to go pee again. And I was not going to stop again until we got on 84. Landon would not wait, so he got in the back seat (traded spots with Tanner) and pissed into a freaking bottle. THEN to top that off, he did not want to hold the bottle, so he stuck it down in one of my shoes! "WTF mate?" The drive there took us around 5 hours. I drove most of the way, and Tanner finished it off for the last hour and a half.

Once we got there, the only people we knew down there were busy. We got really frustrated and really agitated as well. Finally we got a hold of Meredith (Landon's GF) and she was telling us how to get to her dorm. Well the phones in Lubbock suck, and like 2 minutes into a conversation, you lose the person you were talking to and get a bunch of reverb. So we lost her and could to get back with her. Then, like 15 seconds later, Brant calls me and we are talking and he is telling me how to get to her dorm. She told us to go University to Flint, and Brant told us to go 19th to Flint. Well Flint and University don't meet, so we finally find her dorm, and Kristin (the girl we are staying with) calls me. She said she would come meet us, but we were already up in Meredith's dorm room. So we were there for like 10 minutes and then Kristin got there. Tanner and I left and Landon stayed at Meredith's. OH, btw, Meredith's roommate is Ashley. Ashley had a little pink friend sitting on top of her dresser. You make up your own assumptions. Tanner and I follow Kristin back to her place, and find out that there is no beer, nothing to do, and no good looking girls! We end up watching a movie and going to sleep around 12:30. Tanner and I shared Kristin's bed.

Saturday we got up around 11 and called Landon to wake him up. He would not go eat with us, so Tanner and I went to Whataburger™. Then we went back to Kristin's and finally got a hold of Landon. Then, Landon and Meredith were hungry. So, we went to Chili's. Landon, Meredith and Ashley went back to the dorms, and the rest of us went to Kristin's to watch the game and drink some beers. Brant came over and we watched the game. Good times, I miss that kid. Well come 6 the Texas game is on, and I really wanted to do something fun in Lubbock, because we did not drive 5 hours to watch TV. Secretly, I wanted to watch the game, and fortunately there was nothing to do. So I got to watch my game. I was excited. Now I was down for anything. We went to a pretty sweet party at this guy named Greg's place. There were amazing looking girls here. I met a guy who lives on my street here in Arlington. I really did not meet him persay, because I already knew him, but I had not seem him since Jr. High. The party was pretty sweet, but we were all tired, so we went back to Kristin's and passed out.

The best part of the trip was the ride home today. We were driving and got to Abiline, and I was tired of driving, so we pull over so Landon can drive. As we are driving we see these two drop dead gorgeous girls. Well Tanner decides its "moon time". So as we drive by, he moons them. We all have a good laugh, and then he puts his phone number up on the window and the called us. They called us, and apparently they go to Plano West. So we pass them and they pass us for a good while. Then they exited to get gas, so we went on our way. About an hour later, we see two hotter girls. At this point, Tanner is driving and landon is in the back. Landon decides he wants to moon them. So he does, but it was not a very good one. But I know I saw them laugh. So as they passed again, he did it again. That time we got the finger as they passed us in a hurry. Then we got home..... 4 hours, with stops.

We are like the best road-trippers I've ever seen.

- Daniel

Not a God

You are not a God created by human hands,
You are not a God dependent on any mortal man.
You are not a God in need of anything we can give,
By your plan, that's just the way it is.

You are God alone, from before time began
You were on your Throne, You were God Alone.
And right now in the good times and bad, you are on your throne,
You are God alone.

You're unchangeable....
You're unshakeable....
You're unstopable....
That's what you are.

You're the only God whose power none can contend,
You're the only God whose name and praise will never end.
You're the only God who's worthy of everything we can give,
You are God, that's just the way it is.

You are God alone, from before time began,
You were on your throne, You were God alone.
And right now in the good times and bad,
You are on your throne, You are God alone.

In The Light

I keep trying to find a life
On my own, apart from you
I am the king of excuses
Ive got one for every selfish thing I do

Whats going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I’m still a man in need of a savior

I wanna be in the light
As you are in the light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, lord be my light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the light
All I want is to be in the light

The disease of self runs through my blood
Its a cancer fatal to my soul
Every attempt on my behalf has failed
To bring this sickness under control

Tell me, whats going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That Im still a man in need of a savior

I wanna be in the light
As you are in the light
I wanna shine like the stars in the heavens
Oh, lord be my light and be my salvation
Cause all I want is to be in the light
All I want is to be in the light

Honesty becomes me
The secrets that did run me
Pride has no position
The fame that once did cover me
Has been sentenced to this earth

Tell me, whats going on inside of me?
I despise my own behavior
This only serves to confirm my suspicions
That I’m still a man in need of a savior

Saturday September 18, 2004

I am so fucking sick of being screwed over. Quit bull shitting around with me. I am not a fall back option, I have feelings too! So, you know what? I don't know how much further this will go!

Wednesday Sept. 15, 2004

I opened a new bank account today. It will be my new savings account so that I can buy my tahoe in the coming while. I am going to save more than half of my paychecks and put it towards this accoutn. I can't wait.

Today was a slow day at work. We only sent out like 97 packets or so, which is very atypical. I did however sell 80 cases of candy yesterday, I have a guy calling me tom to order 61, and a lady calling me friday to order 100. That = good for Daniel :). Tom I have to make a delivery in McKinney around 2. Its nice to get out of the office every now and then.

I had my first exam tonight since being back in school. It was in sociology, and was much different that what I had expected. Not different in a bad way nor in a good way, just different. I am sure that I did fine, I knew all the material. However, it was presented in a way that I was not expecting. O well, the first tests are always the most controversial because you have no idea how the prof will write the test. I will find out Monday how I did, so wish me luck (although its kinda late isn't it:-/)

I got to babysit last night. When I got home from school, my dad's parents were here watching Lilly. They were going to stay here until I got home, and then either stay and watch Lilly so I could go study, or leave and I would watch her. My grandfather was so redudant about my decision to stay, that I felt akward. But, they left and I watched her. Tanner came over not too long afterwards, and we watched a lil TV til the parentals got home. Then the night began! Tanner and I drove around for like 20 minutes looking for something to do, realized that there is NEVER anything to do in this town, and went home.

This is going to be a good weekend. NO ONE can ruin it for me this time. I am playing tennis saturday, and I am going to win! Julie wants me to meet her friend Ashley and hang out with them saturday. I am not sure how this is going to work out, but I am always up for something new. Oh, and speaking of tennis, I have my first singles tourny tom night at the Tennis Center @ 8 (hint hint!!). Lilly is going to Tyler for the weekend, so its gonna be quiet around my house. My mom and dad were supposed to go to College Station, but I'm not sure if they are going still or not. I know they are making a delivery on saturday at 9 (the same effing time that my tennis match it!) and then who knows. I was thinking about going to College Station also. I can't take much more of this living at home crap. I love my parents, I really do, but when I work at home with them all day, and then see them all night, there is never any Daniel time. I only leave the house maybe twice a day, and that is to go to the post office for like 10 minutes, and then for school from 530-650. I want to go do stuff, go meet new people, but its hard when I get home from school and want to just lay down. Working full time and going to school at night is not the easiet thing in the world to do. Some nights I just want to stay home and take a nap, but I can't.

Ok, thats enough for tonight. If I write down everything I am thinking tonight, it leaves nothing for us to talk about later. That is under the assumption that anyone wastes their time reading my nonsense. Well PBS has a show on with a debate between C.S. Lewis and Frued about the existance of God. My parents are watching and Im sitting at my desk listening and it sounds really interesting. Im gonna check it out.

- Daniel

Letter in the mail

I got a letter from Lindsay!!! It made my day. Its only the second letter that I've gotten, but she said that she has been busy. She was in the hospital because she had a 104º fever with bronchitus and strepth. She told me not to worry, but when someone you care about tells you that she is that sick, I can't help be worry. She comes home on Oct 7th :) I can't wait! I'm gonna take her out to a nice dinner so we can catch up on the times we have missed.

Dangit, I just sealed my letter back to her, and I forgot to write some stuff. O well, I'll just have to get a new envelope.

I talked to Lindsey Henrie today. Her sister has been trying to go into labor for almost 2 weeks now. They are finally going to induce her tom morn at 4:30, so please pray for her.

Tonight I am going up to Tony's Pizza to watch MNF. Apparently they have a dozen wings for $1.25 :-/

Wish my luck with whatever the week brings. I have my first Exam on Wednesday, so please pray for that too!

- Daniel

Catch Up

Wow, so I have not written on here in forever, so I guess what's a better time to start again than now? The last three posts where from my other blog, coincidentially that seemed to be lacking in attention, and there were only three so I figured I would just copy them over to here. Aren't I smart?

Well my brother and his GF are here from College Station this weekend. They have been dating for 6 months now and they are still in the always kissing and touching mode. It is driving me crazy. I used to think it was bad when we went to the mall as a family and he was so loud and obnoxious, well now its twice as bad bc she is loud too! But I do like her, she is really nice and he is becoming more considerate of others. So I guess its a good thing for both of them. It is hard however to see them so happy together and me living at home alone, but I am happy with my job and school and tennis, we'll see what God brings into my life.

I am working full time now, and loving my job. I am running a business with my dad that is the fastest growing internet based fundraising company in the United States. Which sounds better than I work for my dad at a company that he runs out of our house. Which sounds better to you?!?

I started school again. I LOVE it! I go Monday and Wednesday at 5:30 til 6:50 to Sociology and Tuesday and Thursday at 5:30 til 6:50 to Statistics. So far I have been on top of everything, and followed everything that my Profs are going over. Its so nice to go to class prepared, I don't think that I ever have been prepared BEFORE class started. In high school I never did homework or even studied and made the grades, college is so much different, when a prof suggests that you study 2 hrs for every 1 hour spent in class, they are not kidding. I have studied more already this year than I did in my entire high school years. Given, I was only in high school for 3 years, but still, the point is that same.

Last night Texas played Arkansas. It was the best game I have watched in years. Texas won, which made it that much better, but it was close at the end, so my blood was flowing. I did not do anything last night once the game started. We went to Del Friscos for dinner, which was freaking awesome, best steak ever! It was better this time than last time we went, but last time we went I was like 12 so I don't really remember it, heh.

Well its 3:15 and the cowboys are starting, so I am gonna go watch them hopefully beat the hell out of Minnesota, but I doubt it. Minnesota is very good, especially with the talent they have in Dante Culpepper and Randy Moss. Wish them luck!

- Daniel

Saturday July 31, 2004

Well as of late, I am noticing a big change in my life. I am no longer in debt, I really don't go out very much anymore, etc. My parents went to tyler last night and I really did not do anything exciting. I did meet some of my neighbors who I have seen driving around a lot, and thought they were really cute. Some of my friends came over, but they were really more annoying that enjoying, and I wanted them to leave. I was talking to Lindsey about it, but she really did not seem to interested. As a matter of fact, I was talking to her tonight and she did not seem interested?!?!? O well. Last night I had two really odd dreams that I remember. One was that Danielle and I were making out and then we started dating. Which is odd because I could not picture her and I together until then. I also had a dream that I was at Lindsey's birthday party and we were kissing and her parents came a threw me out and for some reason they hated me. I am guessing that its because I was kissing their daughter, but it was a dream, so it does not really have to make sense does it? I slept today until 1. I have not done that in years. My doggies slept with me and kept me company because it was quiet here. Once I got up, I finished calling the places for my dad, and then went to Arby's to get some lunch. I put my back seats down and let my dogs go with me. They were so awesome. When I got back I mowed the yard. The yard always looks so good when its mowed and edged. My parents got back around 7 and we went to eat dinner. After that we pretty much came home and I have been sitting here watcing T.V. and playing on the computer since. I really would like to go do something, but there is nothing to do. Brant called me earlier and he is working until like 1 and wants me to come get him when he gets off, because the guy who was going to drive him is drinking and Brant does not want to ride with him. I like that of Brant, I think it's smart, but I would so much rather not have to go get him. But, I am a good friend and that's what friends do. On a good note, tonight when I finally decided to put my contacts in, they both went in on the first try.

I watched the DNC the other night. I have so many thoughts about the Dems, that I don't want to type it all. I will just say that I hope that I am not viewing them as so bad because I don't like how a FEW of them are acting. I am trying to have an open mind, but they just seem so blatantly hypocritical.

Better Luck Tomorrow

Thats it, I'm so fucking happy I can't stop it.... it's a never ending cycle, when you have everything you want, what's left? you can't settle for being happy, thats a fucking trap, you've got to take life into your own hands, do whatever it takes to break the cycle, thats what it is, breaking the cycle