California

We've been on the run
Driving in the sun
Looking out for #1
California here we come
Right back where we started from

Hustlers grab your guns
Your shadow weighs a ton
Driving down the 101
California here we come
Right back where we started from

California!
Here we come!

On the stereo
Listen as we go
Nothing's gonna stop me now
California here we come
Right back where we started from
Pedal to the floor
Thinkin' of the roar
Gotta get us to the show
California here we come
Right back where we started from

California!
Here we come!

When I'm With You

Taking my time
I'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
I'm gonna be fine
As soon as I get your picture right out of my mind

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine

For nothing at all, I know theres a million reasons
why I shouldn't call
With nothing to say, could easily make this
conversation last all day

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine

Another lesson I didn't get to learn
Your my obsession
I've got nowhere to turn

I wanna feel the way you make me feel when I'm with you
I wanna be the only hand, you need to hold on to
But everytime I call you don't have time
I guess I'll never get to call you mine

AF

The Air Force is for me. I went and talked to them today. They said the same as the Army that I hvae to wait 6 months bc of my meds, but then I am signing and going to be a computer and system programmer. I am going to give my life to the Air Force and let them mold me into what I should be.

This Time

She will let you win
She'll be waiting around
Then she'll push you in
And watch you drown
I've heard better to go ahead and let her in
I've been here before but I'm not coming round again
How can you turn a blind eye when I'm screaming
I want you to hear me this time
Turn around take a good look now cuz I'm leaving
I want you to hear me, I'll be fine
She will rush you in
Then slowly back out
When you're suffering
She'll push you down
I've heard better to go ahead and let her in
I've been here before but I'm not coming round again
How can you turn a blind eye when I'm screaming
I want you to hear me this time
Turn around take a good look now cuz I'm leaving
I want you to hear me, I'll be fine
You never had time to get away
From reasons why or the things you say
When the moment's not right
You never had time for different ways
You're wondering why you're still the same
As you break down and cry

Im tired, so damn tired. Get me the hell out of here!

Sunday May 23, 2004

Stick a dick in your ear, and f*ck what you heard!!

I got hit in the face today by some kid who thought he was tough, but only tought with his three friends behind him...... I like the pain that i felt though. The kid hit like a lil pussy and i think that my sister can hit harder, but the surprise of him hitting me was more shocking. Had he been alone, he would be alone in the hospital right now, lucky him.

More happened today, but that is all im going to talk about.

Except my uncle and aunt had their first son today, his name is Zion Denali Michael Sitarzewski. He shares the same birthday with my siter and we are going to see him tom.

Daniel

Saturday May 22, 2004

Tonight was awesome. Graham Colton is teh win!!!!11 We left Grant's house at 630 (Grant, Evan, Landon and I) and were going fine til we hit the Ballpark traffic since the game had just gotten over. We thought, "Hey, its just a lil Ranger traffic, it wont last". Well that traffic lasted til just before loop 12 hit 30 and we saw an over-turned car that had the highway down to one lane. Once we passed that, we were smooth sailing...... for about a mile. We then hit more traffic, it turned out to be just a car that hit the gaurd, but they shut the whole highway down for this one :-/ The police directed everyone to the off ramp to a light and then let them get back on at the next entrance. They did not however have a cop patrolling that light, so it was running its normal course, with 4 lanes of IH 30 running to it. We were the 5th to last car to have to exist!! As soon as we effing got off, they opened the highway again. IT TOOK US 2 AND A HALF HOURS TO MAKE A 25 MINUTE TRIP!!! But the concert was freaking amazing. They did delay the show since most people who were coming to the show were coming from the way we did, which was nice.

When the show was over I talked to Lindsey. She was soo drunk that she could barely keep the conversation going. It turns out that she got totally wasted at my aunt's work party and then my aunt let her leave. I DO NOT APPRECIATE THAT!!! That is totally not acceptable, especially since Lindsey is.... 19 not 21. Terry should not have let her drink!! I'm sorry Lindsey if you like to drink, I am not coming down of you for that at all. But for my 48 year old aunt to let you drink at her party and know about it is unacceptable. Part of me wants to call her and ask her what the hell she was thinking, but I wont.

Tomorrow is my sister's birthday. My momma and I got her a custom Boyd's Bear™ that says Happy Birthday Lilly on it. We ordered it on Tuesday and paid for the second day service, but they say allow 24 hrs for processing, so that would mean that we would get it on Friday. Well, it did not show up, so Lilly does not get her present on her birthday!! I am pissed, that is not cool at all. We did the extra money we spent back, so that was good, but still she does not get her present on her birthday.

Tomorrow shall be intersting, we will see how it goes........................

Daniel

Good Will Hunting - The Talk.....

Robin Williams - Do I wonder if I'd be better off if I never met my wife? No, that's okay. It's an important question. 'Cause you'll have your bad times, which wake you up to the good stuff you weren't paying attention to. And you can fail, as long as you're trying hard. But there's nothing worse than regret.

Matt Damon - You don't regret meetin' your wife?

Robin Williams - Why? Because of the pain I feel now? I have regrets Will, but I don't regret a single day I spent with her.

Matt Damon - When did you know she was the one?

Robin Williams - October 21, 1975. Game six of the World Series. Biggest game in Red Sox history, Me and my friends slept out on the sidewalk all night to get tickets. We were sitting in a bar waiting for the game to start and in walks this girl. What a game that was. Tie game in the bottom of the tenth inning, in steps Carlton Fisk, hit a long fly ball down the left field line. Thirty-five thousand fans on their feet, screamin' at the ball to stay fair. Fisk is runnin' up the baseline, wavin' at the ball like a madman. It hits the foul pole, home run. Thirty-five thousand people went crazy. And I wasn't one of them.


Matt Damon - where were you?

Robin Williams - I was having a drink with my future wife.

Matt Damon - You missed Pudge Fisk's homerun to have a drink with a woman you had never met?

Robin Williams - That's right.

Matt Damon - So wait a minute. The Red Sox haven't won a World Series since nineteen eighteen, you slept out for tickets, games gonna start in twenty minutes, in walks a girl you never seen before, and you give your ticket away?

Robin Williams - You should have seen this girl. She lit up the room.

Matt Damon - I don't care if Helen of Troy walked into that bar! That's game six of the World Series! And what kind of friends are these? They let you get away with that?

Robin Williams - I just slid my ticket across the table and said "sorry fellas, I gotta go see about a girl."

Matt Damon - "I gotta go see about a girl"? What did they say?

Robin Williams - They could see that I meant it.

Matt Damon - You're kidding me

Robin Williams - No Will, I'm not kiddin' you. If I had gone to see that game I'd be in here talkin' abouta girl I saw at a bar twenty years ago. And how I always regretted not goin' over there and talkin' to her. I don't regret the eighteen years we were married. I don't regret givin' up couseling for six years when she got sick. I don't regret being by her side for the last two years when things got real bad. And I sure as Hell don't regret missing that damn game.

Robin Williams - Good Will Hunting

So if I asked you about art you could
give me the skinny on every art book
ever written...Michelangelo?
You know a lot about him I bet. Life's
work, criticisms, political aspirations.
But you couldn't tell me what it smells
like in the Sistine Chapel. You've
never stood there and looked up at
that beautiful ceiling. And if I asked
you about women I'm sure you could
give me a syllabus of your personal
favorites, and maybe you've been laid
a few times too. But you couldn't
tell me how it feels to wake up next
to a woman and be truly happy. If I
asked you about war you could refer me
to a bevy of fictional and non-fictional
material, but you've never been in
one. You've never held your best
friend's head in your lap and watched
him draw his last breath, looking to
you for help. And if I asked you about
love I'd get a sonnet, but you've never
looked at a woman and been truly
vulnerable. Known that someone could
kill you with a look. That someone
could rescue you from grief.
That God had put an angel on Earth
just for you. And you wouldn't know
how it felt to be her angel. To have
the love be there for her forever.
Through anything, through cancer. You
wouldn't know about sleeping sitting
up in a hospital room for two months
holding her hand and not leaving because
the doctors could see in your eyes
that the term "visiting hours" didn't
apply to you. And you wouldn't know
about real loss, because that only
occurs when you lose something you
love more than yourself, and you've
never dared to love anything that much.
I look at you and I don't see an
intelligent confident man, I don't see
a peer, and I don't see my equal. I
see a boy. Nobody could possibly
understand you, right Will? Yet you
presume to know so much about me because
of a painting you saw. You must know
everything about me. You're an orphan,
right?
Do you think I would presume to know
the first thing about who you are
because I read "Oliver Twist?" And I
don't buy the argument that you don't
want to be here, because I think you
like all the attention you're getting.
Personally, I don't care. There's
nothing you can tell me that I can't
read somewhere else. Unless we talk
about your life. But you won't do
that. Maybe you're afraid of what
you might say.

How absolutely perfect?!?

Three Evils

Across the floor in the hand of where we drove the drill
a cautious ear to the mouth of your confession
think of all the things we put him through
in the face of his god would he tell the truth?

still recorded were the words that dribbled out his kiss
when eyes go blind in this man of what could once become
sever the limbs off his torso in sleep
and burn what remains so the world may now see
no longer...will we wait for your answers
back to the hell where you've come from
think of all the times you've once had
write them in a letter that says goodbye

you'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
you'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth

slowly discarded were the remains of his lonely youth
among the alley where the dwellers scare to notice
picture a young boy in pieces and streets with leveled malfunctions
no name to be called redeemer
We'll fix him restore him...with the love is no other
think of all the things you did before
write them in a letter that says reborn

you'll listen to reason while you're face down in the dirt
you'll stomach the hurt and break for him here just how much he's worth

following you across the interstate walking away...I'll fire on
following you across the interstate walking away...I'll fire on
following you across the interstate walking away...I'll fire on

on the wrong way out
on the causeway to neverwhere
on the wrong way out
on the causeway to neverwhere
on the wrong way out
on the causeway to neverwhere

dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end?
dear my friends in the time we've spent forever after beyond this when will our nightmare ever end?

pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...
pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...
pull the trigger and the nightmare stops...forever you will learn

Monday May 17th, 2004

Today was awesome. I did not do too much til around 6. I did not waste my day, but it was not too hectic. At 6 Brant and I went to play golf. I had one of the best afternoons after. It was soo beautiful this evening, I dont think it could have been prettier. After golf, we went to Hooter's and got some wings. I honestly don't care for the girls there, they are really not the attractive nor do they leave anything to the imagination, why would someone want that?!?!? Well after dinner I came home and took a shower and Emily Worley and I went to go see Troy. We got to catch up on old times for a lil bit and sat through a 3 hour movie. The movie would have been terrible if Brad Pitt had not been in it. Not that his sexy-ness makes a movie, but you have to admit, he is a good looking man. The movie was not bad though, it was just a lil too long. After the movie I took Emily home and we decided that we need to hang out more often, she is good people and I'm glad she is back.

Lindsey is having a bad night, and she told me to read her blog, but it has not updated and she wont answer her phone. I hope everything is OK...... if not, please call me and talk to me.

ANNA TOMORROW!!!

Daniel

Explanation

Last night I posted that I would tell yall what I did last night since I had a really good day.

I got up yesterday and went to church. I was amazed at how many people were not there and how many people I did not know. But the message was a good one, the preacher who was filling in for David was not so good, but he is not a preacher. I saw Katy and Mr and Mrs Peters. They came and said hi to me and it was good to get to talk to them for the lil while that I got to.

After church I came home and took a nap and then went to Babies'R'Us with my mommma and the princess. We spent about an hr there looking for "adopted baby books" and a new diaper bag. Well I had just gotten quiznos and was thirsty...... We ended up not getting either the book or the bag, so we waited in line at Babies'R'Us to buy a drink :-/

Brant called me after we ran our errands and we went to Joe Pool Lake and fished for a lil while. I caught the only fish :) but we were in a lil creek so it did not really count. Then we went and showered and got ready for the night. A bunch of us decided that we would play poker and just catch up on old times. It was really fun, I got to see alot of people that I have not seen in forever. Jamie invited me to go to Florida with her and her friends on friday, but Lilly's birthday is sunday so I can't go :(:(:( At 1:30 Brant, Landon and I went to IHOP. YOU HAVE TO TRY THE STUFFED FRENCH TOAST, omg it is soooo good. I got home at 2:30 and went to sleep.

When I checked my email this morning, I had a comment on one of my posts. It was from Hayley but it was from a post like 4 days ago :-/ weird. O well, it was good to get to hear from her.

Well I am about to take a nap before I start my yard project.

Daniel

tonight was fun.... I'll have to explain later im about to fall asleep.......


Daniel

I miss my friends

Dear Jamie

dear jamie, i've got a letter i would like to send
its lacking strings of words with punctuation at the end

but should i trust this dialect
to convey the right effect?

dear jamie, i've got some things i'd like to set in pen
i would have used a pencil but leads just not permanent

but should i trust my printer's ink
to express the things i think?

every time i tried my best to think of something to contest
with inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say

dear jamie, this envelope will represent my heart
i'll seal it send it off and wish it luck with its depart
and this stamp will be every action that carried my affection
across the air and land and sea

but should i trust the postage due
to deliver my heart to you?

every time i tried my best to think of something to contest
with inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say

every page i tried my best to fill with something to contest
with inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say

i'll give you all i can
a flower and a hand
i hope this helps you see
signed, sincerely me

Dead on Arrival

i hope this is the last time
'cause i'd never say no to you
this conversation's been dead on arrival
and there's no way to talk to you
this conversation's been dead on arrival

a rivalry goes so deep between me
and this loss of sleep over you

this is side one
flip me over
i know i'm not you're favorite record
the songs you grow to like never stick at first
so i'm writing you a chorus
and here is your verse

no, it's not the last time
'cause i'd never say no to you
this conversation's still dead on arrival
and there's no way to talk to you
when you're dead on arrival

a rivalry goes so deep between me
and this loss of sleep over you

this is side one
flip me over
i know i'm not you're favorite record
the songs you grow to like never stick at first
so i'm writing you a chorus
and here is your...

whoo!
this is side one
flip me over
i know i'm not you're favorite record
so-o-o-o

this is side one
flip me over
this is side one
flip me over
i know i'm not you're favorite record
the songs you grow to like never stick at first
so i'm writing you a chorus
and here is your verse
here is your...

Comatose

The doors are closed and the walls are white
Someone calls but I don't want to talk tonight
Stay away you all want to.....stay away
I'm going to be all right.....all right

Within the arms of slumber
Going to leave it all behind
Comatose gone under
Like all the other times

With pride and disdain I'm going to ignore this pain
When someone falls you're supposed to get up again
I try to oblige but I can't tonight
I'm going to be all right....all right

Within the arms of slumber
Going to leave it all behind
Comatose gone under
Like all the other times

Comfort of my dreams
I resign myself to you
Dream as I might
I'm sleeping when I'm blue
Such a pleasure when I feel myself go under
So stay away....stay away
While I'm in the arms of slumber
And I'm leaving it all behind

The magic of sweet morpheus you're doing it once again
You saved me from my sadness you saved me from my pain
Protect me from depression protect me one more night
And I'll be all right....all right

Within the arms of slumber
Leaving it all behind
Comatose gone under
Like all the other times

Comfort of my dreams
I resign myself to you
Dream as I might
I'm sleeping when I'm blue
Such a pleasure when I feel myself go under
So stay away....stay away
While I'm in the arms of slumber

To Daniel-
I just want you to know that i love you dearly. No matter what decision you decide to make for your life i will support you completely. I thank God every day that we are friends. I hEArt you.
LindsEy

Friday May 14th

I wish I were a bird so I could fly far, far far away!!

Hotel Room

I'm all alone in this hotel room
The fear inside of me is uncontrolable
I hear the cops, see the sun the sky is blue
And all I can think about is being with you
Guess I'm all alone again

So, do ya think you know the way I feel
And do you think you feel the way I do
Cause I am all alone, all my friends are home
And soon I'll be there wishing I was here

Never once did I seem to care
If I didn't have anybody near
But now I do and I don't know what to say
I feel lost in every possible way
Guess I'm all alone again

So, do ya think you know the way I feel
And do you think you feel the way I do
Cause I am all alone, all my friends are home
And soon I'll be there wishing I was here

Do ya think you know the way I feel
And do you think you feel the way I do
Cause I am all alone, all my friends are home
And soon I'll be there wishing I was here
Wishing I was here

Wanna call you but I know I can't call you
Wanna see you but I know I can't see you
Wanna touch you but I know I can't touch you
Wanna be inside of you
Wanna call you but I know I can't call you
Wanna see you but I know I can't see you
Wanna touch you but I know I can't touch you
Wanna be inside of you, wanna be inside of you

Do ya think you know the way I feel
And do you think you feel the way I do
Cause I am all alone, all my friends are home
And soon I'll be there wishing I was here

Do ya think you know the way I feel
And do you think you feel the way I do
Cause I am all alone, all my friends are home
And soon I'll be there wishing I was here
(Do you know the way I feel) Wishing I was here
(Do you know the way I feel) Wishing I was here
(Do you know the way I feel) Wishing I was here
(Do you know the way I feel) Wishing I was here

Thursday May 13th

Well my doctor said today that I dont need to be on my medicine anymore. I am on a trial two month period to see how I react to the changes. I also got an email today from the recruiter who talked to me the other day and he wanted to know what was going on with the whole deal. I told him that I was off the medicine for two months and I am excited to hear what comes next. Hopefully I will hear from them tom. I have had a rough past two days since I went to the office for to talk to someone. I felt like I was not acceptable and somewhat not wanted since I need to take medicine. I wondered to myself, why would God do this to me? What did I do? Why can't I decide to do something for myself for once?

I HAVE to find a job tom. It is getting to the point to were I cannot be at my house. I love my family, I really do, but there is too much of it. I have lived on my own for two years, and all the sudden there are two people who are worried where I am and what I am doing. It is weird because I feel like I need to impress them, or be on my best behavior. It is stressing me out, and I should not have to deal with that in my own home. I don't know what to do. I was going to be on the hunt for a roommate today because I honestly thought my doctor would say no, but since he didn't, I am not going to commit to a lease when it is possible I will be leaving sometime soon. I need to find something to occupy my time, I really wish that the tennis center would call me back. That job would be awesome, but the application process is terrible. They don't get to see me or talk to me before they call me for an interview, they have no idea if I can play tennis or how well I can. The job at Double Dave's in Fort Worth is a 25 minute drive with NO traffic. If I were to work an 8 hour shift, it would either be 9-5 and I would hit traffic both times or 5-C and I would hit traffic going to work. I think that it is out of the question, but it is nice to have something to fall back one. The job at Galyan's might be prime. I have worked there before, it is close, and it would only be for the summer. They don't pay for crap, but still, I dont need alot of money.

Brant and I went to the mall today. I miss my old friends. Some of them were the best friends I have had. I am glad that I get to see alot of my friends this summer. It will be good for me, I think, to be back with them. I am not sure though, suring high school I had a bunch of problems. I dont know what is good for me anymore.

I have also felt bad lately because I don't seem to find the time to hang out with Lindsey. I always seem to have something else to do. I am sorry, and I promise we will hang out soon. She also found out that I was thinking about the armed services the other day, and I am soo glad that she supports me and whatever my decision is. Two of my other really really good friends have told me that I was stupid and doing it for the totally wrong reasons. I am not going to post those reasons because they are between the two of them and myself, but I am upset that they would not support my decision. I am a big boy, I have made plently of life decisions that seemed to work out fine for me, PLEASE JUST TRUST ME, I am doing it for the right reason.

Landon and I went to Northpark mall today and WOW did I feel out of place. Everyone there looked and acted like their shit did not stink and they were the most wealthy people in the world. I don't like people like that, because to be honest, my family probably has more money than they do (but I don't like to talk about that). The good part is that next tuesday, the one and only Anna Kournikova will be at the Victoria Secret there, Landon and I are sooo going. After Northpark we went to the galaria. We fought a bunch of traffic, but for some reason time seemed to fly by, I dunno why. The galeria was cool. They are doing ALOT of construction there. The ice rink has been ripped out and they are putting a new one in, and all the edges of every floor is ripped off and I am guessing they are putting new sheet rock on there or somehting. It really looked trashy, but I am sure that when it is done, it will look amazing. Then Landon, Lindsay and I went to Razoo's to eat dinner. The fried pickles sound like they taste like crap, but surprisingly they were good. After dinner Landon and I went back to Arlington and I went to play poker with some of my old friends. I came home early because I am tired and I need my sleep.

WOW this is long......

On the man show right now, Tonya Harding is boxing one of the hosts. I really dont like the new hosts, but this looks interesting.

Im going to sleep
I hope everyone had a good evening and have a safe friday

Daniel

Today is going to be a good day........

Remember me at 2:45, a big decision will be made.

Daniel

I am bored tonight. I don't want to be here any more, I need out already. I need something or someone.............

I miss my dog, Lindsay is going to get to see her and I'm not :( maybe she will bring her back for me :):) I feel bad for her having to live with the ass.

tom arond 2:45 keep me in your thoughts, that is when I go to the doctor to see about my thyroid medicine.

Im gonna watch a movie til Lindsay is done with cooking and can talk to me again.

Daniel

Tuesday May 11, 2004

So i took my pre-test today.... i scored an 86. They told me that a score of 50 was good :-/ I would qualify for every computer job that I could want if....... I did not have to take fucking medicine for my fucking problems!!!!! why can't I be normal?? Thursday I am going to the doctor to see if I can get off of them.

I told my parents today. My dad had some concerns, but overall he said he would be proud. My mom, on the other hand, said she would go along with whatever I decide, but I can tell she would be very upset if I did.

I'm watching the movie Big Fish right now.... movies are just not as fun when you watch them alone. I have no one to discuss it with. So Daniel, what do you think about this part? Oh you do? I already knew that... blah blah blah

I am getting so sick and tired of burning movies, i think that i will stop for a lil while... but I will finish the few that I have started so far.

So this movie is getting better and better as it goes. It started off stupid, but there are some really good lines and points. I wanna get married, and have a white picket fence and a beautiful wife who loves me, WHERE ARE YOU!?!?!?! please come find me! I need help, I need a change, I need to be done worrying and imagining. If things are meant to be, let them be, no more of this waiting game stuff, I'm too introverted to go meet people, she is going to have to come to me. I know its not typical, but that is how I will know she is the one....

I dont think its fair that I am not allowd to join because i have a thyroid problem. Why am I not allowd to serve my country?!?

Screw it, no sense in worrying about it, there is only one thing that can help me now, and that is God and if it is his will that I join, then I will. Please show me a sign!

Today is going to be hectic, wish me luck......

I was looking through my 13 pages of quotes and came accross this one.

"Never kiss a friend. If you have deeper feelings, never reveal them. You will lose that friend forever" :( :(



A best friend
is always there,
whether you need advice,
or a pep talk,
or even a shoulder to cry on.
A best friend
listens with her heart
and is always honest with you,
even though the truth
may not be
what you want to hear.
A best friend
knows all your secrets,
understands your fears
shares your dreams.
A best friend
never stops believing in you
even if you give up
on yourself.
you are
that kind of friend
to me.
And no matter what happens,
you always will be.
You are my best friend....
my forever friend.


"Everything is OK in the end, if it is not OK, then it is not the end."

Lindsay - "If you want the rainbow, you got to put up with the rain." ;)

"When the door of happiness closes, another opens, but often times we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one that has been opened for us."

"Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back! Don't expect love in return; just wait for it to grow in their heart but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours."

Would I be out of line if I said I missed you??

Well its official..... Tuesday morning I'm going to talk to the army guy. It is not because Lindsay is going, it's not because I dont like it here or don't like the people. It's because I want to do something different, I want to see what I am capable of. The training that I could get would be better than I could get anywhere else. If I sign up for 3 years of service, I will be out when I am 22, the same age I would be if I just stayed in college. I could work on my degree while I was there and maybe even finish up. I can have the army train me in computer technology and then use that work to further my career in the future. There are only two people who knew I was thinking about this, Lindsay and my Aunt Susie. Susie thought that it was an awesome idea, she said that everyone she knows that has gone into the service has come back a changed person, changed for the better. That is what I want, I need to get out of my brother's shadow and my mom's wing, I need to grow up. I need to do my own thing............

Whats more honorable than serving your country?

Today is mother's day. We went to a church in Fort Worth called Christ's Church. The church is near TCU and it was very near to what I expected. It was a rich church, everyone I saw if they were not rich, they sure knew how to look the part. I saw so many cute girls. The bad part is that most of them were probably snobs, but unfortunately that is what turns me on in a girl. I want a girl who knows and wants to be treated like a princess, someone who I can spoil, but still have an idea what life is really about.

I Love my momma and I hope she has a wonderful day, Im gonna do my best to make sure she does.

Daniel

whoa

So yesterday my dad woke me up at 8:30 in the morning and told me that the truck I was supposed to unload would be at our wharehouse in 30 minutes and I needed to get up and head down there to unload it. I hop up and brush my teeth and head down there. I had to pull the cookie dough for the order that we had to deliver that afternoon and then I had to unload the rest of the freezer because the new stuff needed to be in the back and the old stuff in front (typical). Well our freezer is not your typical in-home freezer, it is a 14x14 foot freezer set at -10∫, it was effing cold, I had to wear a sweatshirt. Well, I get all the cookie dough pulled for the order and the old stuff out, and I'm waiting for the driver to get there. 9:30 rolls around and he is not there, 10:30..... nothing. At 11 he finally shows up, and the delivery company did not give him a palet jack so we had to unload 5800 lbs of cookie dough by hand..... NOT FUN!!!!! As I'm unloading the stupid truck I get about half way done and my dad finally shows up to help me out, that made it that much easier. Surprisingly it only took me/us about an hour and a half. Funny story..... when my dad woke me up he said that he was going to pay me an hourly rate to help him out yesterday, I told him that it was not necessary, but he insisted. Well, I don't know what time my day started or finished, nor do I know what I was getting paid. After I got done with the truck, my dad asked if I would take the delivery for him, and of course I jumped on it because otherwise I would have to clean the wharehouse. I get to the lady's house, totally in the ghetto. She opens the door and she is wearing a moo-moo, I had the hardest time not laughing, but I restrained my self :). After I made th drop, momma and I went to target to get a radio and a broom for the wharehouse because it sucks working in there with no music. While we were there we walked down a row and saw a bunch of American Flags. I asked my momma if we had a flag for the house, and she said no, but we need one. So we got one and momma said she was gonna put it up in honor of Lindsay going to the army. Then we spent the next 2 hours looking for me an entertainment center, but came up with nothing.

Totally off topic, don't you hate it when someone starts a story with "so". Its like they are picking up from where they left off, but the never started the story in the first place. I realize that I started this blog with a so, but it was to make a point :).

After we got home from our lil journey, I took a nap and it felt so good. I woke up at 6 and hopped in the shower and went to the mall to exchange some shorts at Abercrombie. Then I headed to Lindsay's house to get her and head to Tyler for the night. We got there at about 9 and went to our room and played around until we fell asleep. It was weird because usually when I sleep with girls I dont sleep very well, but last night I sleep so good. Its not that I feel uncomfortable when I sleep with em, its just that I am not used to it, but for some reason I did not feel that way last night.

Lindsey woke me up at 7:30 this morning with Josie jumping on me, BOO!!!!! We went to starbucks and dunkin donuts with the princess (my sista) and now we are back at Terry's house looking at pictures of me when I was litlle, I was the biggest dork, but hey I was a stud.

until next time.........

The Dance

Looking back on the memory of
The dance we shared 'neath the stars above
For a moment all the world was right
How could I have known that you'd ever say goodbye

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Holding you I held everything
For a moment wasn't I a king
But if I'd only known how the king would fall
Hey who's to say you know I might have changed it all

And now I'm glad I didn't know
The way it all would end the way it all would go
Our lives are better left to chance I could have missed the pain
But I'd of had to miss the dance

Yes my life is better left to chance
I could have missed the pain but I'd of had to miss the dance

for now

For now all I have is that I'm home in Arlington. check back later.......

i just dont give a shit

Jaded

There's a time and place, for everything.
There's a reason why, certain people meet.
There's a destination, for everyone.
What's the explanation, when we're done?

All the summer nights spent wondering;
So many questions asked, but no one's answering.
Would it be okay if I left today?
Took my chances on what you said was wrong?

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.
I'll never regret these years.

Now here i sit, so far away.
Remembering all our memories.
Its times like these that I miss you most,
Remembering when we were so close.

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, we'll never regret.
These years spent, so faded and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

We'll never forget the places we've been, you and i.
Our lives are slipping away.
Don't want to let time pass us by, byyyyyyy...

I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret.
These years....
...spent, so faded and wreckless,
Not sorry, and I'll never regret...
I'm jaded, stupid, and wreckless.
Not sorry, and I'll never regret these years.

Brain Stew

I'm having trouble trying to sleep
I'm counting sheep but running out
As time ticks by, still I try
No rest for crosstops in my room
On my own, here we go

My eyes feel like they're going to bleed
Dried up and bulging out my skull
My mouth is dry, my face is numb
Fucked up and spun out in my room
On my own, here we go

My mind is set on overdrive
The clock is laughing in my face
A crooked spine, my sense is dulled
Passed the point of delirium
On my own, here we go

Jessica is not her name

so I'm down here like you wanted
why am I not sleeping in your bed
its 3 o'clock in the morning
are you all over me again
you're the only one I can't figure out
but the one I can't forget
you got me worked up and locked out
I gotta stop messin with you
messin with my head
Jessica, I can't solve this equation
and its tearing me apart
Jessica
game's not worth playin
if you don't finish what you start
starting over without you
you'd be the first thin in my past
we'd sleep alone
I won't call you on the phone
be we knot that won't last
Jessica
I can't solve this equation
and its tearing me apart
Jessica
game's not worth playing
if you don't finish what you start
its the hardest thing to let you go
but I'm leaving tonight
it was good for me was it good for you?
goodbye

Today

It finally hit me today that I am moving tom. This is the first move, other than my parents, that I have been sad. Every other time my "friends" have been like, oh you are moving? thats cool, and nothing more. This time the people I work with are having a going away party for me tonight. Someone is actually thinking about me, do you know how good that feels?? This job has been one of the best experiences of my life. I have met so many interesting people, and people whom I will not soon forget.

Yellowcard - Back, Home

Don't know what I was looking for when I went home, I found me alone
And sometimes I need someone to say, "You'll be all right. What's on your mind?"
But the water's shallow here and I am full of fear, and empty handed after two long years

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance to feel it

Back home I always thought I wanted so much more, now I'm not too sure
Cause sometimes I miss knowing someone's there for me and feeling free
Free to stand beside the ocean in moonlight
And light myself a smoke beneath the dark Atlantic sky

Another sunny day in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

Everybody here is living life in fear of falling out of line
Tearing lives apart and breaking lots of hearts just to pass the time
And the eyes get red in the back of your head, this place will make you blind
Put it all behind me and I'll be just fine

Another sunny day beneath this cloudless sky
Sometimes I wish that it would rain here
And wash away the west coast dreaming from my eyes
There's nothing real for them to see here

Another starry night in Californ-i-a
I'm sure back home they'd love to see it
But they don't know that what you love is ripped away
Before you get a chance, before you get a chance to feel it

one year, six months

Sew this up with threads of reason and regret
So I will not forget. I will not forget
How this felt one year six months ago
I know I cannot forget. I cannot forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

I can tell that you don't know me anymore
It's easy to forget, sometimes we just forget
And being on this road is anything but sure
Maybe we'll forget, I hope we don't forget

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that I can share with you

So many nights, legs tangled tight
Wrap me up in a dream with you
Close up these eyes, try not to cry
All that I've got to pull me through is memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you
Memories of you

I'm falling into memories of you and things we used to do
Follow me there
A beautiful somewhere
A place that we can share
Falling into memories of you and things we used to do

you decide

Only God can judge me, so Im gone, either love me or leave me alone!!!!

Wyclef - I am your doctor

I am your doctor, here's the prescription
Two teaspoons of my friendship, a full cup of my love

I will be knockin by the time me come a four
Here comes the doctor baby worry no more
I will bring the remedy baby I will bring the cure
Give you what you want and absolutely I am sure
Take my hand I'll be your man
Let me take you to the sunshine island
I will be your therapy, let it be
You know you need my healing

I am your doctor, here's the prescription
Two teaspoons of my friendship, a full cup of my love

And if your back is hurtin, turn around girl
See, I'm your chiropractor
Please!!! Lay on this sofa
And let me message your back
So I can feel what's wrong

If you got a problem and you wanna get it fixed
Send for the doctor with the medicine for your chest
Fill your prescription with the right mix
My kiss and I will say what kind of miracle is this
Take my hand I'll be your man
Let me take you to the sunshine island
I will be your therapy, let it be
You know you need my healing

When you make it to the emergency room
Tell the nurse I said that she don't need no, coverage no, no no no
Cause I been waitin to operate on you all night
So lay back, relax, feel my hands right through your hair

I am your doctor here's the prescription
Two teaspoons of my friendship, a full cup of my love

Hey!!! Tell me if your ready for the doctor love
Your ready for the doctor love
You wanna feel the doctor love
Wa da da ding, wa da da da day
You wanna feel the doctor love
Wine your waist to the doctor love....

follow up

so apparently i was fooled, ha ha (not funny). Payback is a bitch. ;)

well

I got at tattoo yesterday. Im excited, its the alpha and omega symbols. Its on my ankle. I really like it.

I dunno what Lindsay's problem is, but whatever it is, she needs to get over it. I have been friends with Lindsey forever. Im sorry if we are closer, I have only known Lindsay for like 3 months. Im sorry if that is a problem, but I dont see it changing anytime soon. She also is leaving in 3 months and I dont want to get too attached and get my heart broken, I couldnot hanlde that. Also, I am sure there are plenty of people who she loves more than me (which i doubt she does, but that is just me).

Im in a bad mood, im going to work.

Mother's Day

I NEED HELP THINKING OF SOMETHING TO GET FOR MY MOM FOR MOTHER'S DAY. She is the most important lady in my life and i want her to feel special. I need some ideas, feel free to let me know

echo

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste, Asking why

I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride

I think about your face
And how I fall into your eyes
The outline that I trace
Around the one that I call mine
Time that called for space
Unclear where you drew the line
I don't need to solve this case
And I don't need to look behind

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste, Asking why

I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride

Do I expect to change
The past I hold inside
With all the words I say
Repeating over in my mind
Some things you can't erase
No matter how hard you try
An exit to escape
Is all there is left to find

Close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste, Asking why

I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

So I close my eyes
Let the whole thing pass me by
There is no time
To waste, Asking why

I'll run away with you, by my side
I'll run away with you, by my side
I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo in my mind
Until this echo, echo, echo, echo can subside

from katie's away message and i liked it

*Someone out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to and he'll smile at you when you tell him this but he'll never laugh at your heart and he'll brush the hair out of your eyes and send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it... and you'll put his picture next to your bed and he'll call to say goodnight or just 'cause he is thinking of you... he'll look in your eyes and tell you you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it...*

Friendship

Friendship is rare,
Do you know what I'm sayin' to you?
Friendship is rare.
My derriere,
When you find out much later
That they don't really care.
It's rare to me, can't you see?
It's rare to me, can't you see?

Oh shit there's a bear,
Could you hand me that shotgun buddy,
Also that chair?
We're fighting a bear
Now your life's in grave danger
And you don't even care.
It's rare to me, can't you see?
It's rare to me, can't you see?
It's rare to me,
Say a prayer for me,
'Cause it's rare to be
In Tenacious D.

Friends will be friends
They're running naked in the sand,
Friends holding hands
Will someday surely form a band,
Friends will be friends
They say that friends are friends
To the bitter end.
Long-as-there's-a-record-deal-we'll-always-be-friends!
Long-as-there's-a-record-deal-we'll-always-be-friends!

Friends will be friends
They're running naked in the sand,
Friends holding hands
Will someday surely form a band,
Friends will be friends
They say that friends are friends
To the bitter end.
Long-as-there's-a-record-deal-we'll-always-be-friends!
Long as there's a record deal we'll always be friends, yeah

Thank you Lindsay

You sing a song
While sitting at a red light
You think of home
While sitting at a red light

Too slow to roll
Put your life on hold
An open path
With nowhere to go
You start to wonder
While sitting at a red light

You can run a red light
Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

A chance to breathe
While sitting at a red light
You look around
reflecting on your life

A chance to think
Am I drinkning too much
Should I keep going
Lose the life that I love
A second glance
When coming to a red light

You can run a red light
Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

When things look low
You've gotta keep stong
Feet to the grass
You've gotta walk it off
The bows been tied
Too tight to laugh
Feet to the ground
You've gotta walk it off

You can run a red light
You can run a red light

Start to think
Am I drinkning too much
Should I keep going
Lose the life that I love

You can run a red light
Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

You can run a red light
Give up at a red light
You break the mold
When running through the tolls
Speeding through your whole life

You can run a red light
You can run a red light

You sing a song
While sitting at a red light